Monday, April 11, 2016

I needed her today. 😢

Today was one of those days where all I wanted to do was pick up the phone and call my big sister for some advice. Yesterday marked a year from the last day I saw her. The pain is on the surface, almost tangible. We often called one another to seek parenting advice.  I struggled with the 'parenting' role today and her voice is what I needed to hear. Her calm way of counseling me through things. She always LISTENED. Really listened. Oh, how I ache for her. I regret not seeking her advice more. I celebrate those times I did. She always complimented me on my relationship with my kids. I hold that so dear!  No kinder words have ever been said. After all, this is our most important role. Motherhood. She was, and is, an amazing mother that I try to emulate every day. I know she's proud of me and I know she's just as proud of my kids as I am. I loved that she'd drop everything to answer my calls. I loved that my problems were her problems. My joys were her joys. I still seek her counsel, just in a different way. I am so grateful for vivid dreams and strong memories. I'm grateful for all her little notes and texts. I'm grateful for her comforting recipes that bring her into my home. That was my remide today.  My niece Lexi helped me make Amy's Easy Chicken Burrito's. They are so tasty and delicious. She may not answer the phone, but every bite brought me sweet comfort tonight. Oh, Amy, I love you so! 
Amy's Easy Chicken Burritos
2-4 frozen chicken breasts 
1 can black beans
1 cup salsa 

Dump ingredients in crock pot and let simmer for 6 hours on low. Shred chicken with fork. Serve in tortillas with cheese. 

1 comment:

kandy said...

Me too! I want to really talk to her again. Don't much like these one way conversations. So on her behalf... let me tell you that you are an amazing mom and your kids are so lucky to have you as their mom! And Zane, Max and Porter have you too!
I love you!